The beginning...

So today I weighed in for my 90 day challenge...through Lifetime Fitness...I'm so depressed. My weight?? 282 pounds. Seriously way closer to 300 pounds than I even care to pretend to understand. The upside?? I'm so disgusted with myself that I got to this weight AND that someone (meaning my trainer that weighed me in and all you reading this) knows it. The good news? I'm going to KICK ASS at this challenge. I'm going to follow these rules:
1) PUT MYSELF FIRST. If this means that I say "sorry husbandI'm heading to the gym..." off I go...and the good news is that he will be supportive of me and excited that I'm going.
2) Plan meals. If we plan the meals we can choose some better/healthier meals that still taste good. That is huge. If we have something planned (and have the ingredients), ordering chinese or pizza isn't so easy!
3) Do stuff at night...if I go in the morning (which is my goal), after the boys are in bed, I can TOTALLY do something more at night!
4) Put myself out there and tell people that I'm trying to do this. Hopefully the more people that I have to support me, the better off I'll be!

I know that I can kick @ss at this challenge, and I know that I am strong enough to lose the weight and make everyone that loves me proud of me.

Of course, those that are reading this now are only my closest friends and family...those that I trust won't look at me in disgust at my current weight and will cheer me on as I continue to lose weight. At the end of this 90 day challenge, I hope that:
1) I'm close to being able to run a 5k and not be the last person to finish
2) We've changed our family lifestyle of waiting to the last minut to figure out what to eat for dinner and then having something unhealthy
3) I'm more confident in myself and all that I CAN do.
4) The boys are proud of me...and I'm willing to wear a swimsuit and take them swimming in the pool....
5) My husband is proud of me for FINALLY doing what he has been telling me to do for longer than I can remember -- put MYSELF first. I deserve it, he knows it, and now I need to make myself know it...
6) Of course, have lost a ridiculous amount of my body weight...


Sooooo....ready....set....GO!!!!!!! Stay tuned to how it all goes!